Ugh the physical pain and mental anguish a person goes through without thier Twin Flame

I'm feeling a change in the air don't know if its a good one or bad. My pain ansd such sorrow from being apart from my beloved Twin Flame is so much sometimes makes me want to run and scream or cry with my hands thrown up in utter defeat. We don't choose our destany or fate but are merely apart of the whole life circle. Oh my dear how I wish you were here to hold me and carry me to the place we have seen in meditations only. For all pain would dispate you remember as I different pains from past lives dispating after our "Ultimate Reunion".For 5 years now we have been back in comunnicate outside the land of dreams. We have visited via the land of dreams since we were very young children. Off to bed I must go my heart yearning to be with you as we are and always shall be one mind, one body, and one soul as it always has been so shall it always be forever in eternatity.